Since about 2012 I've been living with Multiple Sclerosis. And In 2018 it was the reason I had to make some major changes. I started this blog to share my experience with that along with other things.
To help myself and other people. along the way.
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Surviving Multiple Sclerosis/ help and mental health
I’ve happened to notice a few things. Over
the past couple of months. People say when you need help to reach out. If you
don’t speak on it no one know. When is it that when people do they turn a blind
eye to it? Which takes a lot out of people because it is really embarrassing.
Not everyone feels that way. And I understand
that some people aren’t in a place to help. It just has me thinking some people
end up in even worse situations because of it.
Whether it be from
friends, family, or even programs that are out here to(help) people.
The programs that are
out here to help people have many clauses. And to me most of them don’t make
any sense. I sit and think on why people tend to go out and harm themselves and
sometimes other people. Now, I understand some people tend to lie about things.
Not everyone is built like that.
A lot of people
myself included really need help. And the only way to get them is to be an alcoholic,
a drug addicted individual, or to live in a dangerous shelter(yes, I said that).
Where is the
programs for people like me; who can’t get assistance from the state except food
stamps and medical(awaiting a disability decision)? What kind of help is really
I’ve applied for
part time jobs. Although I don’t have that many degrees/certificates. The ones I
did obtain in the past can’t be utilized. I previously held a Certification Nurse
Assistant certificate as well as a commercial drivers license(class b with
several endorsements).Both expired one because I hadn’t utilized it in years
the other because my current health condition wouldn’t allow them to approve me
Who really wants someone with Multiple Sclerosis(that
occasionally has flare ups) driving them around or caring for sick individuals?
I can’t go back work
on my Associates degree, start any program, because I can’t do all of the hours.
I’m limited to 20 hours. Which I’m unsure of whether or not I can actually do
that. With me having weakness, numbness, tingling, and my leg sometimes giving
out on me.
Is it that people
really don’t care, can’t, or won’t help people in positions like mine? Things
of this nature really can have a hazardous affect on people’s mental health. Or
does that not matter when people aren’t actually taking medication for it? Or
not seeking professional help for it?
I take enough meds already and would rather
not have someone judge me any more than what they already are.
I’m using these
blogs and my YouTube channel to vent, gain insight, and eventually gain some
type of income. As well as to help myself deal with my multiple sclerosis as well as other people.