Showing posts with label families. Show all posts
Showing posts with label families. Show all posts

Saturday, January 16, 2021

If You’re Lost as a Parent, Watch This | Goalcast


This is a video I came across that I believe all parents should watch. It is very insightful. Especially with us dealing with this pandemic!

Friday, August 21, 2020

Re-edited/Reminders

I hate being reminded of things. Recently I've lost primary custody of my youngest son, due to the issue I have going on, like me being hospitalized, losing my job, and awaiting a response from social security.
I'm really hurt about his father being greedy for money and taking me back to court. Especially being that he's made it seem as though our child was in danger, when he went to school every day, doctors appointments were scheduled an attended, he had new/clean clothes on every day. Yes, that was without me having an income or a car.
I can admit us living house to house was not ideal. But he was in no way shape or form in any type of harm. I love all of my children with everything in me. And most times I would go without to make sure they had. He knew that.
Although it did nott matter to him because his only concern was to get assistance from the state of Connecticut. What kind of man actually makes it his business to try and defraud the state when he actually works? And makes really good money doing so. Yes, this has been reported several times to several different departments. The response was they couldn't do anything because he had his own business and couldn't really track his income (interesting, right?
With all of this going on I chose to sit back and ponder my thoughts, rather than open up and speak about them. Being that its easier for me to deal with them that way. Yes, it bothers me that I only see him every other weekend. And that when I do have him, we have to walk on pins and needles (don't want to get into that part), just to not ruffle any feathers.
It's just so much easier for me to handle it that way. When it's brought up, I'm brought to tears. I've cried more than enough tears and would rather avoid them. I hope everyone could understand that!
I'm not trying to be harsh or trying to stop you from feeling a certain way about how I should feel. But me crying and lashing out isn't going to get me far at all. It all stalls the process I have to take a bit more. Stops me from taking the time to send emails to get help, applying for programs that'll help us, or even writing to attempt to try and make some type of living.
Trying to find a job with no experience and really messed up heath issue just isn't working for me. The reminders of things I could be doing would be doing, and right now just can't do is hurting my situation more. It's not you it really is me. I forgive you for bringing it up. I just hope you can do the same for me. Even if you don't understand or care. Just please take a moment and try to keep that in mind.
I just rather not be reminded.
Please take a moment to share this if you've read it. And maybe even comment and follow if you like. I'm trying to get better at this. Thanks, have a good day!

Re-edit /Surviving Multiple Sclerosis with Mzlittlejohn

How can people expect for you to open up to them about your feelings? When you speak to most people about them, they just start telling you about theirs, or what you should be doing. Most times it’s after you’ve exhausted almost all of your options. What I've been doing lately is writing about them.
If people take the time out to read my writings, they’d understand them better. With the things I have been going through ;although I feel it’s embarrassing, and people are looking at me differently ;this just works better.
I am at the point in my life where I can care less about how people feel. It's initially not for them, it's for me. And it actually helps me get it out. No interruptions, or hearing other peoples thoughts, or what they would do. 
I have to deal with the people telling me no. I have to deal with being sent to different programs. I have to deal with my children no longer having stability ;as well as not having an income, staying with other people, and not knowing if tomorrow will be the day that I’m told I have to leave.
Or having a conversation and seeing something that triggers my tears. Yes, I have those days. Days that I’d just rather be alone with my thoughts. Of Course there is some when I don’t need to be alone.
A lot of times that is my only option. Because right now I am not at liberty to have that option.
One day I’ll get back to not having to result to this. And maybe have conversations with someone who understands.
As of right now, it cannot be done. Especially if when have moments where I have to bite my tongue. Or end up with the conversation being about them or someone else and not me.
As of right now, the conversation's about my feelings. Lets just stick to it being written, typed, and maybe in one of my latest YouTube videos. Heck at the moment, it’s here. And will probably end up back here again.
Because trying to obtain followers on my YouTube page at the moment isn’t getting far. I’m not funny, refuse to do crazy stuff, and just have not quite found my niche with that.
At the moment, there aren't that many videos on there. Currently I’m at a stand still when it comes to what I’d like to talk about. The video I posted before the last was on trying to obtain voice over work. Can you believe they want you to pay upfront to find work? I mean if I had money, I wouldn't t be trying to pay them for work.
I wonder if I pay them, does it guarantee me jobs? Or leads or whatever they consider it? I’m afraid it’ll be a waste of time anyway.
I am not in no way saying that I am no longer interested. In fact I’m still trying to get around having to pay. I’m broke, can you blame me?
If you've gotten this far thank you. I’d say thanks for reading  this far. You're reading this piece written be me. And it is much appreciated. Since this seems to be the best way for me to get my feelings out; there will be more eventually. How often? That is what I’m not to sure about.
Check out my my YouTube page as. The links should be available here( on the left of the web version of this site. 
Please don't hesitate to comment. And follow this blog (again on the left of the web version of this page).


Monday, August 3, 2020

To My Children

             The Statements in both of these photos are kind of for all of you. I found them on Pinterest and couldn't resist posting them. The only difference being that two of you are boys and one of you is a girl. I Love you all unconditionally; and I hope you'll never forget that, nor the words that I am trying to get through to you here!
                                        
   


You Guys Know I've always been overbearing. Just know One day You'll understand exactly why!



Don't Ever Forget This My Only Daughter (Insider)
                                                

 The Highlighted Links below these photos are  the links to Pinterest were I got these photos from!
        




Monday, June 8, 2020

Still Surviving Multiple Sclerosis


https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1dBofmqpvd2xQBOtjlQqykBalJujb5fu1
I saw this on @multipleclerosisupport on Instagram;And I had to share this with a little story of my own.   People  assume because I look okay some days I’m I’m not really as sick as I presume to be that I’m fine. Not knowing that there is days that I have were I fight to push through fatigue. Or about my spasms that I have every few days. Or the migraines that I take pills for daily. 
 Remember as in most cases looks can be deceiving. Take into consideration your words and actions can do a lot to a person’s mental health with what they’re already going through as well.

  If you’re going through something similar drop a comment describing it, and what you do to deal with it! 
I have a therapist myself and I use aromatherapy.

Thursday, May 21, 2020

I’m so proud of Our Graduate


In 2011 my dad took my kids on a trip to University of Connecticut. We  had no clue that would be the place one of them would end up going to school.Look at how young they were.




This photo is from five years ago. The start of his Journey. I was smiling yet I was nervous. I swear I didn't really want him to go. Although. I was okay knowing that he was still close to me. 
 I remember literally arguing with him:because he wanted to go to school clear across the county just about,  I think it Arizona, Florida,and and I wanna say California. 

Eventually setting his sites on the Bachelor of Arts Program at the University of Connecticut.Which we were okay with. Bring that he was much closer. And he was very interested in the Digital Media and Design Program that they had.



The last one is the best one yet .This is his/our final year. Yes,our because we got through this together. No graduation picture(no barber or Graduation 👨‍🎓 ). Thanks to this Pandemic!You guys will get one when this over(a Graduation picture that is) . 


To sum this all up he is a 2020 Graduate from the University Of Connecticut  Undergraduate With a Bachelors Degree  Digital Media and Design Major Web/Interactive Media Design Concentration.


Congratulations : Mr. Juwan G.Dumas


(I chose to use this photo because it was taken on one of his recent adventures;and he wasn't as serious)



Update: If you’d like to send him a monetary gift for his accomplishment his cashapp is $CydCt

Being that there wasn’t a traditional Graduation celebration due to this pandemic. I see that other people are making their information available. So, I’m making his available as well. Thank you in advance!





                                 



Friday, February 7, 2020

Black History Fact

Hey guys I’m sorry. I know I said I’d touch on a few black history moments . I get in as much as I can . My health hasn’t been that great. This one I think is a good one I hope you enjoy. Today in history February 7,1926.
            -Carter G.Woodson


Click on the link to learn about what Mr.Woodson.



https://www.zinnedproject.org/news/tdih/carter-woodson-black-history-month/

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

We need to take better care of ourselves

  I noticed there’s a lot of people don’t go to the doctors often. Unless they’re sick.  Sometimes they go when its a little too late. Which is not a good thing at all.

 I’m saying this because I’d like people to get on top of it. Schedule regular medical appointments.Follow up and stay on top of things.

  Myself included. I know I have a tendency to ignore things that are going on with my body. I really hate having to go to the doctors. There's almost always something to be concerned about afterwards.For me it is anyway.

 With family members that having major health issues: It should automatically push you to get your health checked out.

 During a few of my regular appointments after being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis; I found out that I had two other  health issues. One regarding my heart the other is my Thyroids.

 So, I'm constantly going to medical appointments. Every three months, six months, yearly, and sometimes in-between I have appointments scheduled. I have a primary doctor(even though I'm about to replace him), heart doctor, an endocrinologist,as well as and obgyn. I'd just rather be aware of whats going on.

 I'm just putting this out there to say don't wait until it's too late. Some things  can be treated.  There's also some things can't be treated. But it's easier to try and manage it when you know. Take care of your body! I don't care if it's just a slight cough or a runny nose. Sometimes it's not just a cough or runny nose.

 We also need to try different ways to eat healthier. I know it's easier said than done. Fruits and vegetables can be a little expensive. Now that the weather has changed up lets start looking into the farmers market prices. Heck or even find the closes farm available. And drink lots of water to avoid dehydration.


  This has been on my mind for the last few weeks. I was unsure of how to go about writing about it. I hope you guys take what I am saying into consideration. Take better care of yourselves.