Monday, November 30, 2020
Thank you for coming to my blog. I'm not sure if you're a frequent viewer or a newcomer but you are appreciated! If you've had a chance to read some of my past blogs you know that things have been really hard for me the past few years.
If you haven't once again you're presence here is appreciated!
Things still are (going hard for me/us). The thing is I haven't been complaining or bringing them up as much. Feeling as though people really don't really care. Or maybe really even don't want to take the time out to read about it.
I've taken the time out while I'm feeling sort of okay today to type this up. Just to explain how grateful I am for the people that have helped us along this journey. Although it seems as though it is far from over.
I still don't have my kids back together(yes, my kids although two of them are adults, one is still in college). And we are still living from house to house. Well, currently one more than others(if that makes sense). Meaning we are in one house more than we are in others. I'm truly grateful for the fact that we are not in the streets.
Now the income issue is a whole other issue. I'm currently living off of saga and food stamps. Still waiting for disability. An Issue I've been dealing with since being taken out of work in 2018.
I cannot wait for the day to be able to pay it forward.
Praying that those of you who are able to do so. Do so without judgment you don't know what people have gone through to get in the situations they are in!
Thank you Once again to those of you that have been there for us. And continue to be there!
Friday, August 21, 2020
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Monday, August 17, 2020
What I've been going through with multiple sclerosis. And my fears about my children back to school.
Monday, June 3, 2019
Like most nights it was hard for me to fall asleeep. When I finally stopped reading on my kindle app(yes, I love to read. My writing/blogging just became a need to get things off my chest);put my phone down,and tried to get comfortable, I felt like my body was becoming immobile.
I literally couldn’t move any of my limbs for almost a minute. Which has me terrified.
So now instead of sleeping I’m still up writing this. That is why this is titled the way it is. Now I’d actually like to go to sleep. I’m afraid that if do go to sleep I’ll wake up and not be able to move. It sucks because I actually have an appointment in the morning.
I’ve read countless articles about things that could possibly happen to me. With me having the multiple sclerosis.Yet,to actually start experiencing these things is unnerving.
In 2012 when I was diagnosed I had no idea what I was in for. The minor flare ups(relapses) I’ve had was like a walk in the park compared to this.
One day I’m fine,the next I’m having spasms or shakes. Or weakness, tingling, and let’s not forget numbness.
Why me? Why did this have to come disrupt my life? Have people looking at me as though I’m not doing enough? When in reality I cannot do too much. Can’t sit too long, can’t stand too long, and apparently can’t sleep too long.
I just want things to go back to how they were .And to go back to work. Not have to depend on people. Trust me if it bothers you could you imagine how I feel? Even though I’m grateful for all of the help.
Just know I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Including my worse enemy!
I need to get into a better living situation before things get to that point. So if you have a moment of time, a little compassion,or are just a prayer warrior;Take a moment and pray for me. As well as my babies!