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It's Been A Little While

    Writing just hasn’t been one of my priorities. With it being the holiday season  and things not being the same. Some of you may know what’s been going on. And a lot of you don’t.

  

   My multiple Sclerosis has been messing with me. And I am still not working. Which I why I stated things aren’t the same. No money no gifts from me at least.

          If you get a chance look through my past blogs and you’d probably get a better understanding.

 Most recently I’ve developed random weird pains. I could be sitting, standing, or laying down and I’d get sharp pain lasting for a minute or more. That started out in my foot. Then went to my wrists. And last but not least my knees that I already have osteoarthritis in.

With funds being like they have been ; I’m unable to do what I’d like for my kids.

 I guess you could say that has me in my feelings. And I’d just rather not speak or write about it.

   I started typing this about two weeks ago. Thinking I’d get back to it. Only to get on my PC and realize that I didn’t save what I had. So, this is what you guys are going to get from me at the moment.

  The funny part about it is. I was in one of my favorite authors reading groups. Trying to catch up on the latest tea; with that publishing company that I will not name. Only to find out one of the final  books in the serious I have been waiting on; will only be coming out in a hard copy. I use kindle unlimited (it works for my broke pockets).

  Any who I randomly asked if someone would gift me a copy. And aside from a comment from the Author( which was funny but understanding if you keep up); I got a response from another reader gifting me the funds. Which I swear changed my whole mood.

 It got me out of my funk a little and it led me here. Which I’m grateful for . And I hope you all are as well. Well those of you that keep up.

 I appreciate those of you that take the time out to read my blogs. And hope if you have the chance you’d subscribe or follow, shop, and share!

Insomnia along with a little fear

  Like most nights it was hard for me to fall asleeep. When I finally stopped reading on my kindle app(yes, I love to read. My writing/blogging just became a need to get things off my chest);put my phone down,and tried to get comfortable, I felt like my body was becoming immobile.

 I literally couldn’t move any of my limbs for almost a minute. Which has me terrified.

  So now instead of sleeping I’m still up writing this. That is why this is titled the way it is. Now I’d actually like to go to sleep. I’m afraid that if do go to sleep I’ll wake up and not be able to move. It sucks because I actually have an appointment in the morning. 

  I’ve read countless articles about things that could possibly happen to me. With me having the multiple sclerosis.Yet,to actually start experiencing these things is unnerving.

 In 2012 when I was diagnosed I had no idea what I was in for. The minor flare ups(relapses) I’ve had was like a walk in the park compared to this. 

One day I’m fine,the next I’m having spasms or shakes. Or weakness, tingling, and let’s not forget numbness.

 Why me? Why did this have to come disrupt my life? Have people looking at me as though I’m not doing enough? When in reality I cannot do too much. Can’t sit too long, can’t stand too long, and apparently can’t sleep too long. 

  I just want things to go back to how they were .And to go back to work. Not have to depend on people. Trust me if it bothers you could you imagine how I feel? Even though I’m grateful for all of the help.

  Just know I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Including my worse enemy!

   I need to get into a better living situation before things get to that point. So if you have a moment of time, a little compassion,or are just a prayer warrior;Take a moment and pray for me. As well as my babies!