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Showing posts with label support. Show all posts
Showing posts with label support. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 8, 2021

We Finally Got A Place





  I wanted to share this with you all. Since I've Been MIA mainly due to my depression. There has also been a ton of doctor appointments,  Ms physical therapy, as well as therapy appointments in-between there as well. I think you guys deserve to know that I wasn't not doing anything at all. I never gave up on trying to find a place of my own. Being that throughout everything that I've had going on; Since I've started my blogging journey mainly started because of my health not being able to work, not having an income, nor a place of my own.


Friday, August 21, 2020

Re-edited/Reminders

I hate being reminded of things. Recently I've lost primary custody of my youngest son, due to the issue I have going on, like me being hospitalized, losing my job, and awaiting a response from social security.
I'm really hurt about his father being greedy for money and taking me back to court. Especially being that he's made it seem as though our child was in danger, when he went to school every day, doctors appointments were scheduled an attended, he had new/clean clothes on every day. Yes, that was without me having an income or a car.
I can admit us living house to house was not ideal. But he was in no way shape or form in any type of harm. I love all of my children with everything in me. And most times I would go without to make sure they had. He knew that.
Although it did nott matter to him because his only concern was to get assistance from the state of Connecticut. What kind of man actually makes it his business to try and defraud the state when he actually works? And makes really good money doing so. Yes, this has been reported several times to several different departments. The response was they couldn't do anything because he had his own business and couldn't really track his income (interesting, right?
With all of this going on I chose to sit back and ponder my thoughts, rather than open up and speak about them. Being that its easier for me to deal with them that way. Yes, it bothers me that I only see him every other weekend. And that when I do have him, we have to walk on pins and needles (don't want to get into that part), just to not ruffle any feathers.
It's just so much easier for me to handle it that way. When it's brought up, I'm brought to tears. I've cried more than enough tears and would rather avoid them. I hope everyone could understand that!
I'm not trying to be harsh or trying to stop you from feeling a certain way about how I should feel. But me crying and lashing out isn't going to get me far at all. It all stalls the process I have to take a bit more. Stops me from taking the time to send emails to get help, applying for programs that'll help us, or even writing to attempt to try and make some type of living.
Trying to find a job with no experience and really messed up heath issue just isn't working for me. The reminders of things I could be doing would be doing, and right now just can't do is hurting my situation more. It's not you it really is me. I forgive you for bringing it up. I just hope you can do the same for me. Even if you don't understand or care. Just please take a moment and try to keep that in mind.
I just rather not be reminded.
Please take a moment to share this if you've read it. And maybe even comment and follow if you like. I'm trying to get better at this. Thanks, have a good day!

Monday, June 8, 2020

Still Surviving Multiple Sclerosis


https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1dBofmqpvd2xQBOtjlQqykBalJujb5fu1
I saw this on @multipleclerosisupport on Instagram;And I had to share this with a little story of my own.   People  assume because I look okay some days I’m I’m not really as sick as I presume to be that I’m fine. Not knowing that there is days that I have were I fight to push through fatigue. Or about my spasms that I have every few days. Or the migraines that I take pills for daily. 
 Remember as in most cases looks can be deceiving. Take into consideration your words and actions can do a lot to a person’s mental health with what they’re already going through as well.

  If you’re going through something similar drop a comment describing it, and what you do to deal with it! 
I have a therapist myself and I use aromatherapy.

Sunday, June 30, 2019

Changes

   Things can change in a matter of minutes. Some for good and some for the bad. I'm speaking up on this from experience. I've experienced so many changes over the past few months.


  From me getting sick (a relapse from multiple sclerosis), losing primary custody of my youngest son, losing my place of residence, losing my job, to me staying with friends and different family members.


  I wouldn't wish any of this on my worst enemies. Although I don't have many. To be honest I don't have any. If I start to feel some type of way I'll just move along. I don't have room in my heart to harbor any hate.


 Me not even acknowledging a person/people, and the things they've done/said to me, is more than enough energy for me to give them.


When things take a turn for the better they'd wish they never did or said whatever.


 I wish things were different. I'm working towards making it better. Not sure how fast the changes  will come. Just know I'm working on it!


While continuing to remember god won't put more on me than I can handle. I'm praying along the way.

  I'm praying for a better living situation(I'm partly there) although It's  not my own yet. I'm praying for a part time job. I'm praying for my health to stay on the right path. As well as for the perfect health and safety for my kids, my family, and my friends. I'm also praying for the help I need to keep the things we do own that are in storage.


That right now is one of my main priorities.So,once we do get a place of our own we won't have to try and get more things!

Please support and share


What are some things that you pray for?

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

Somewhat got an offer for housing

 So,I submitted all of the paperwork for housing. The offer was specifically for individuals with Multiple Sclerosis. I got all of the way up there and it was only for a one bedroom. And it was far away from my family and friends.


   68 miles away to be exact. I did submit the paperwork. Although I haven't gotten a call back. If I get it I'd have to take it until something better comes along. In the meantime. I'm still jumping from place to place.


 This particular time I called around to get a spot at the shelters. And of course they don't have any room. I'm happy I found somewhere to go though.


  I'll be filling out for the upcoming rap applications soon. I'd be beyond grateful if I was to get that. Especially if there's enough room for my kids. All three of them. There's nothing like everyone having their own space.

 I hope if you've taken the time out to read this that you'd take the time to share. 


Wednesday, June 5, 2019

My Convos Pitch/ For a Non Profit company

 A couple of weeks ago I started and account an Convoz. In hopes of winning $25,000 for a start up. My Convoz pitch was to start a non profit for people with Multiple Sclerosis or other life altering health issues. To help with keeping a roof over their heads or maybe even help with paying bills with proof.
   After doing the first few videos  I stopped putting videos on there.Upon doing a little bit of research on the subject I gave up. I didn't realized that it's a little more legwork to do so. Than it is to start a regular company. I know because that I've actually done before.
  I mean a program like the one I suggested is definitely needed. I just believe it would be too much to take on alone. Especially with me still have on and off relapses.
  There is companies like Mslifelines and the National Ms Society. It's just not with some of the specific things people need help with.
 With that being said I hope to one day see a non profit of this sort. It just wont be from me .
https://www.gofundme.com/f/1p8w4rxvhc&rcid=r01-156450513723-ee5b0779b317458d&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

Monday, June 3, 2019

Insomnia along with a little fear

  Like most nights it was hard for me to fall asleeep. When I finally stopped reading on my kindle app(yes, I love to read. My writing/blogging just became a need to get things off my chest);put my phone down,and tried to get comfortable, I felt like my body was becoming immobile.
 I literally couldn’t move any of my limbs for almost a minute. Which has me terrified.
  So now instead of sleeping I’m still up writing this. That is why this is titled the way it is. Now I’d actually like to go to sleep. I’m afraid that if do go to sleep I’ll wake up and not be able to move. It sucks because I actually have an appointment in the morning. 
  I’ve read countless articles about things that could possibly happen to me. With me having the multiple sclerosis.Yet,to actually start experiencing these things is unnerving.
 In 2012 when I was diagnosed I had no idea what I was in for. The minor flare ups(relapses) I’ve had was like a walk in the park compared to this. 
One day I’m fine,the next I’m having spasms or shakes. Or weakness, tingling, and let’s not forget numbness.
 Why me? Why did this have to come disrupt my life? Have people looking at me as though I’m not doing enough? When in reality I cannot do too much. Can’t sit too long, can’t stand too long, and apparently can’t sleep too long. 
  I just want things to go back to how they were .And to go back to work. Not have to depend on people. Trust me if it bothers you could you imagine how I feel? Even though I’m grateful for all of the help.
  Just know I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Including my worse enemy!
   I need to get into a better living situation before things get to that point. So if you have a moment of time, a little compassion,or are just a prayer warrior;Take a moment and pray for me. As well as my babies!